Devotion, Family, Life

Unexpected Joy

“Joy is a mystery because it can happen anywhere, anytime, even under the most unpromising circumstances, even in the midst of suffering, with tears in its eyes.” –Fredrick Buechner

That quote is now framed on my bookshelf. It once graced the table beside my chair. It even sat quietly on my nightstand. Quietly though it sat, it spoke volumes. I gave a framed copy to my mother and another one to Bobbi, our precious family friend, who is an awesome prayer warrior, because she prayed for our Prodigal child every morning at 5:00 a.m. without fail!

The irony in this quote blasted through my heart the day our daughter ran away from home at the young age of 17. I had flipped my calendar page over that day and discovered it. Never once thinking that I would soon discover the true meaning behind it! Joy was far from our hearts and home that day. But it did come to us again. She returned home, like the prodigal son, after discovering that life was not as it is depicted in the movies. She returned with a broken heart and unprepared for the changes coming to her world. Her biggest change came just days before Christmas of her 18th year of life.

He arrived in a flurry of activity. We knew he was coming, we even prepared, but this we did not prepare for. One minute we were sitting quietly on the little sleeper sofa provided for us, the next minute we are instructed to leave the room. White skirts and coats fly around as if in a whirlwind. Movement is everywhere, with the exception of my heart. It is as if it stopped. The minute the tiny heart inside his mommy stopped, so did mine.

Today was supposed to be a memorable day. It had started off early. We had arrived at the hospital around 5:00 a.m. with our beautiful, young prodigal daughter. After a long strenuous day of labor (on our daughters part) and watching and waiting (on our part), my husband and I were quickly ushered into the hallway as the doctor worked diligently to get a heartbeat back in the little life we had yet to meet.

When the doctor came out to speak with us, the anxious teary-eyed parents, he told us he was about to do an emergency C-Section. He instructed us to “suit-up”. In Ephesians 6:13 we are instructed to “take on” or put on the “whole armor of God” so that we will be able to fight against or withstand the tricks of the enemy. I felt like this was some horrible trick being played on my family and I didn’t know for sure how “durable” my own armor was. I talked to God everyday, but there were many areas in my life that needed some work. So here I stood in hospital scrubs and “spiritual armor” shaking in my shoes, but ready to take on the enemy for the sake of my daughter and her unborn baby.

Off we rush to the surgical area and wait outside the door while they hurriedly prepare the Prodigal for the procedure. The nurse comes out and directs me quickly into the room to our daughters side and her dad to the surgery-viewing window. I held onto her hand, touching her face as I silently prayed, watched, and listened. They were frantic to get our little one into the world.

His name had been chosen as soon as we discovered through the miracle of an ultrasound that it was to be a boy. Rylan Oliver. My husband teasingly referred to him as “ROK”, indicating that he would be fiercely strong and powerful. He would be a “good ‘ole tough country boy”. The name Oliver was chosen from our “Grandbuddy”. I still remember the day I sat in Tiffany’s “reclaimed” bedroom trying out different names for our little one. I realize that I keep referring to him as “our little one”, but I can’t help it!

In just a few short minutes that felt like years, a small crying little boy with a head full of dark hair entered this world. Flailing his little arms and kicking his short legs, he was a sight! A tremendously beautiful sight, and I could hardly see through the blur of tears in my eyes! The nurse held him close to his mommy’s face so that she could kiss him and then handed him off to me to carry down the hall to the nursery. Tiffany had said, “mama, don’t let him out of your sight”, and you better believe I didn’t. He was our long awaited for “grandson”! Our hearts were full to overflowing. God was just too good to us! My face was already hurting from smiling so much! It was making me exhausted! But it was the absolute best exhaustion I would ever have! Smiling from ear to ear because of a new life!

When you stop and think of all the lives that have been brought into the world of Christ through salvation, don’t you just know how much rejoicing goes on in heaven over just one life?

Luke 15:10… there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

When we accept Jesus Christ as our Savior by believing on Him and that He gave His life for us, then our heavenly Father “doesn’t let us out of His sight”!

Matthew 10:30 says, And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

Many of us have, or have had loved ones that prayed countless prayers that we might come to know the Father in heaven. When we accepted Him and became part of the family of God, we were the “long awaited ones”. Just like our first grandchild. He arrived in our lives with much ado, and we would never be the same again. Once we give our hearts and lives fully to Christ, fellow believers, we will never be the same!

“Our little one” is now 7. God has added to our family several more beautiful blessings, but Rylan was the one that taught us all so much. He has been diagnosed with mild cerebral palsy and an autistic spectrum disorder.

He was definitely our “Joy” during some tough circumstances, an unexpected gift, but one we treasure with all our hearts.

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Missions

My Reason for Blogging!

I don’t stake a claim to being computer savvy, but I’m not completely illiterate either.

My first introduction to the “business of blogging” was while searching through some of the info on the Beth Moore website and discovered their ministry blog (Living Proof Ministries).

One particular piece of her writing stirred my soul and prompted a comment from my heart. So I “clicked” on comment. That very act changed the rest of my day.

Not knowing exactly what I was doing, I created a blog.

My very first blog was short and simple (I have a tendency to get rather long winded now). I posted my blogspot address in the signature area of my e-mails and pretty much forgot it that day.

I had written about a particular trial that I was going through with one of our daughters and her children. I was praying for them, but feeling the “heat” from the fiery trial along with them.

The next day I received an e-mail from a friend who I haven’t seen in years, telling me that I had “encouraged” her from my blog. I could hardly believe this!

My daily prayer to the Father is that “I can be an encouragement to someone that needs to see Jesus”. I want the Lord to be seen in my life every minute of every day, but for her to be encouraged by something that was going on in my life was amazing!

So I took it a step further. I began to pray about the blogs I posted. I read and studied as if preparing to teach a Sunday School lesson! To me it was.

You see, while I was on the “Beth Moore blogspot”, I hit the “next blog” button, thinking (in my ignorance) I would be going on to her next page…..whoa! Not so!

I hit on something that was the very opposite of the life of Christ! I quickly shut it down, astounded at what I had been witness to on my computer screen! But it made me stop and think. Okay, so Satan was using this tool (this we already know), well then by George (no offense to anyone named George), Jesus could use this too! So on I blogged.

I came across the CWO website and was once again “amazed at the goodness of God”.

Here I have spent countless hours searching for something besides shopping on the net all the while this was going on!

I am in love with what God is doing in the hearts and lives of women all over the world! I have been uplifted and encouraged and yes, brought to tears by many writings of other beloved women of like faith!

Women of God….keep bloggin’ on for Jesus! Keep encouraging others!

Your own blog may be the very tool used to lead someone to Christ!

Romans 10:13-14 NLT says, “For anyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. But how can they call on him to save them unless they believe in him? And how can they believe in him if they have never heard about him? And how can they hear about him unless someone tells them?”

Sisters in Christ, it is our job, our calling, and even our ministry to do what we can, by any means available to us, to share the good news of Jesus Christ!

Keep bloggin’ on!

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Devotion

Call Home

When I’m away from home and away from Jeff, I call home a time or two. It’s not that I’m already homesick, or that I don’t really want to leave home , but that I miss home. I miss him.

I remember when I snapped this picture of Wanda on the morning we were headed back home from our “Sisters Retreat 2007”.

I had walked outside to take some pictures of the cabin in the morning light and Wanda was standing there “calling home”. She searched for the spot with the best reception and then called her baby girl. She needed to hear her voice. Her baby girl needed to hear her mommy’s voice as well.

I think about us. As children of the Most High God, How often do we “call home”? Do we seek out the place with the best reception?

When crisis arise in our lives, is there a hesitation before we seek Him?

Are we wondering if we’ve neglected communication for too long? Wondering if His address has changed?

It hasn’t. He didn’t move, nor did He rearrange the furniture and turn your bedroom into an exercise room. It’s still just as you left it. Perhaps a few cobwebs have gathered in your prayer closet, but I promise it is still there.

Today, while the thought is still fresh, go there. Before a crisis comes. Keep the communication lines open—call home daily.

“Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.”. Jeremiah 33:3 NKJV

I imagine He’s waiting for your call today….

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Hormones

Beginning NEXT WEEK

I will have a private…girls only blog. FULL of the info I am getting from my doctor on the hormone crisis I have been in. Still in…but climbing out!

Doctor visit yesterday with my test results from the “spit test”.

We have been in a study on Wednesday nights with our favorite speaker, Kathy Potter, as she has shared with us the chapters from the book by Nancy Leigh DeMoss, Lies Women Believe. This has been an incredible, although many times tear filled journey for each woman.

I believe with all my heart that we have believed many lies about hormones….and there is an answer. AND I am gonna find it!

Yes, we have ’em. Yes, they can be good…but girls, NOT when they are out of whack! WHEN that happens, I want to…well, I’d better stop right there. Enough said.

Anyway, the way you will get to view this next week is send me an e-mail. THEN I will send you the link. Girls club only. I am not professing to be an expert, witness or otherwise.

I am just a woman on the journey through the valley of hormones….which sometimes feels like death.

Love you. ALL.

Angie

Pictured: Kathy, our fearless leader and me.

Devotion, faith, Trials

The Reality of the Vision


Have you been struggling? I have.

Am I in the boat alone?

In my devotion this morning I read “yesterday’s” AGAIN—before I picked up today’s lesson for me. (We’ll cover today’s on another day…maybe tomorrow.)

I use the word “lesson” because, that’s what it has been of late. Lessons. From HIM to me.

I even put off sharing this…simply because I thought—well maybe they don’t want to hear about this…(I sure didn’t). I mean, really. I thought that once I reached a certain AGE…things would be different. Challenges wouldn’t be so challenging… (Huh. Did it work for YOU?— I thought not.)

Isaiah 35:7 says, “The parched ground shall become a pool, and the thirsty land springs of water;”

Do you ever FEEL parched? Dry?

I have–even recently. I have been battling this out, calling it this…calling it that…struggling in my own mind—and then yesterday, the words from Oswald Chambers in my devotional “My Utmost for His Highest” said this:

“We always have visions before a thing is made real. When we realize that although the vision is real, it is not real in us, then is the time that satan comes in with his temptations, and we are apt to say it is no use to go on.”

I read and chewed. The man wrote this –no telling how long ago—but it fits the heartbeat of so many of us today!

Further down, “God gives us the vision, then He takes us down to the valley to batter us into the shape of the vision, and it is in the valley that so many of us faint and give way. Every vision will be made real if we have patience.”

I know there are many (maybe even you reading this) that has a vision or dream that you feel God has placed within your heart. Something that often seems too heavy or great to bear. A calling on your heart and life to “go” to the unknown. See the yet unseen. And to teach…perhaps the seemingly unteachable.

I don’t know what this devotion does for you today, but I say this, don’t give up on the vision He has given you. If your heart is feeling dry and parched, remember He promised the thirsty lands of your heart will become a pool…springs of living water—enough to feed the thirsty souls of others!

The “battering” it out in the valley can be discouraging…(I am there), but sister—and brother, YOU are not alone there! He is with YOU! He is with ME!

After the valley of shaping—the vision will become a reality.

Habakkuk 2:3 (New King James Version)

For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.

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Photo taken from our weekend mini-retreat. Jeff, Max and me. Sunrise over Silver Lake.

Missions

The Battlefield of Prayer

Last summer, baby sista, Aimee and I drove to Concord, North Carolina to the incredible She Speaks Conference. It was the BEST 3 weeks pay I have ever spent. Ever. (The retreat wasn’t 3 weeks of pay…but we did spend about that much in all.)

Luann Prater, speaker for Proverbs 31 Ministries shared her heart with us on that Saturday at the “She Speaks Conference”. I urge you to go to the site and purchase the CD of the session, “Preparing for the Battlefield Through Prayer”. I promise you will be blessed. (You may have to call them and request it now, since it was last year.)

When Luann concluded the session, she reminded everyone to go by the “Prayer Room” and find “your name”. So, immediately I made a bee line for the prayer room. I mean, I wanted to know where my name was…

I was already weepy-eyed from the session, but when I entered the prayer room, a feeling of utmost holiness came over me. I had the immediate urge to remove my sandals. I did so quickly and put them against the wall with my bag. Now, I didn’t check the feet of the other women in the room to see if they felt the same urgency, but I knew God had a message for me and I was on ground that had been prayed over and into with the mightiest of fervency.

As Luann had said,the “Names of God” were on both tables, along with little slips of paper scattered randomly all around. As I looked at the first Name of God, it was, El Olam, the Eternal God, the Everlasting God. The next line said: “He is the beginning & the End, The One who works His purpose throughout the ages. He gives strength to the weary.” As I read that, I said to myself and to the Lord, “I am weary”. As I searched the table, peering at all the names, I realized my name was laying directly on that page. As tears began to fall down my face, I realized this was the Lord’s love note to me.

Read Genesis 21:33; Psalm 90:1-2; Romans 1:20. I will share Isaiah 41:28-29 “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.”

I cannot express fully the impact of the feeling of that room. If you can imagine standing at the entrance of the cave where Jesus had just been resurrected …the feeling of expectancy, the urgent desire to “seek Him”. That is exactly what everyone began to do as they entered the room. There were benches for kneeling, chairs placed in circles for group praying, and there were pillows on the floor to fall on your face before the Almighty. There was music playing softly…and I think I could detect the swooshing of the wings of angels as the carried the prayers and praise up to the Father in Heaven.

I knew that I needed to find Aimee as quickly as possible—to show her “her name”! As I began to make my way back to my shoes, I wondered, “how will I find her in this crowd of women”, for by now all the classes had dismissed and there were women everywhere! But when I opened the door, with her back to me stood Aimee, directly in front of me at one of the many book tables. I hurried over and told her “you have got to come find your name!” She looked at my face, tear streaked and puffy-eyed, and I am sure wondered what I had just seen.

As we walked into the room, I slipped my shoes back off and she did likewise, we walked over to the first table, as she began to read, I told her to look for her name as she read the Names of God. I already knew where her name was, but didn’t tell her right away. When she found her name, after she read the page nearest her name, she too began to weep. The Name of God was, “Jehovah-Nissi”—the Lord is my Banner!

She explained that the Lord had given her that very scripture when her son had gone missing for a few days last year. As the family sought God, in His love and mercy, He whispered into her heart that He was her Banner! The scripture verses listed was the VERY VERSES that He had given her through those hard days of living.

The name of each woman at the conference was on those tables. Laid out before the Lord, we are vessels for His use. As lives were changed this weekend, the Lord is preparing us to seek Him more, work in His fields, prepare His harvest, doing what He calls us to do, as we live our lives each day. In the world, but not of the world.

Sitting in groups as we were, around the large tables, with the noise of chatter on everyside, I had to “scoot” my chair up close to those around me to hear what they were saying. Ladies, scoot your chair up close to the Father so that you can hear Him as He speaks to your hearts everyday. He does you know. He loves it when we share our hearts with Him.

Have a BLESSED day! I love you all! (I think I surprised all my new found friends when I hugged them, I told them I loved them—for girls…I truly do.)


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Be sure and visit our Bloggers Retreat site and get registered for the October retreat! Registration fee is only $100! We will have 8 of the sweetest and BEST speakers pouring their hearts out with a message from the LORD to you!


For Sisters of Faith

Retreat Speaker! Connie Haile~

A few weeks ago, I was BLESSED beyond words to hear Connie share her testimony and speak such an awesome Word of Truth to the women at Grace Assembly of God Church! Connie is a dear precious friend, and you will be so blessed to have the opportunity to hear her. Please forgive the “shaky” camera! That was my fault :). You can hear a snippet of her message—she has so much to tell us at the retreat!

Connie is an inspiration to anyone who meets her! The challenges we each face must be met head on with the Word of God! There is no other way! I’ve tried other ways…they don’t work! Avoiding them won’t make them disappear. Stopping up our ears and heart will not make them go away. Challenges are faced and conquered when we meet with the Father and hand them over to HIM! He will give us the strength to go through them, or sister, He will deliver you out of them! Either way, you win —through the power of Jesus Christ!

Connie will be with us in October for the 2009 Bloggers Retreat!

July 1, 2009 at midnight ends the early bird registration. Get over to the retreat and sign up. You can pay with “paypal” using your credit card—or send us a check. But get signed up! Hurry!

Yes, I know it is in October! Yes, I realize it is only July right now….but do you realize it seemed like almost yesterday that we celebrated New Years Day??

See how fast the time is going!

Hurry!

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Friends, Journals

On Prayer and Journaling

Recently, our Bible Study class had a discussion about prayer, prayer times, location, etc.

I have a dear friend I visit daily (comes in my inbox) and she shared a great post on prayer, journaling and scripture reading. Visit Ann. Without the “e”. She is an inspiring and gifted writer and mom.

Two weeks ago, if you searched for me online, I was scarce. I was house sitting/dog sitting for my mother and Grandbuddy as they were involved in a missions work project in Central Florida at a new developing orphanage.

It was nice to have break from the same roads and routine. I was blessed to be able to attend my home church, Carmel Assembly of God, where the Spirit of the LORD reigns–and rains. A powerful, anointed message was preached—as the old sign by the road used to read, “We make no apology for old time religion”. I shout a hearty “Amen!”

The old sign is gone, but the sentiment remains. Strong and firm. Just as He requires us to be.

Strong and firm. In our faith. In His strength. He doesn’t call us to walk this road alone, He’s there.

If you want to hear more….I’m over at the Cafe` on Monday 🙂

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Missions

Two Things…

First —the winner of the BOOK by author, Karen Mayer Cunningham, Defying Autism, is…(drum roll please) (Randomly selected by the “Random Number Generator”) Karen of “Hallelujah Anyhow“!

Congratulations Karen!

Second—YOU have got to go see Mary Snyder! She has got the cutest video up of the retreat!

Okay, next up—we have our darlin’ sista and friend all the way from California— Girls, again, this is just a peek at the sweet teachers/speakers/friends we have lined up for you to hear! OR, should I say, God has lined up!

Third…I know…I said two things…well the third thing is….I have MUCH catching up to do!

Come on back! The week will be FULL!

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