“Lord”, Simon Peter said to Him, “where are You going?” Jesus answered, “Where I am going you cannot follow Me now, but you will follow later.” (John 13:36 Holman CSB) Oswald Chambers uses the KJV and I love the way it reads…“but thou shalt follow Me afterwards.” Afterwards.
Girls, I just have to tell you—today’s words has brought the tears to the forefront. Stuck in my throat and threaten to burst as a waterfall. Maybe it’s partly due to the post I finished tonight called “Letter from Heaven“. But I also believe that once again—the Lord has confirmed to me that this book—this devotional tool, was the correct one for this year. Words I spoke today—BEFORE I ever opened this book are on this page. (If you have the book—read today!)
Following Christ Jesus has been my determined path for some time. More determination than before, however, lit my heart afire this past year. Actually, the fire began rising higher in 2007.
Between the first calling of “Follow Me” from Jesus to Peter to the second calling was one of the “blank spaces”. What Peter did in his blank space is, I’m afraid what happens in many of our lives in our blank space. Chambers’ words, “Between these times Peter had denied Jesus with oaths and curses, he had come to the end of himself and all his self-sufficiency, there was not one strand of himself he would ever rely upon again, and in his destitution he was in a fit condition to receive an impartation from the risen Lord.” Sound familiar?
It does to me. For I found HIM only at the end of myself. Realizing I had no power to change any circumstance of my life…but He had all power. As Chambers closes this page, his words ring true and fresh tears sting. “There is only one lodestar in the life now, the Lord Jesus Christ.” Lodestar. Guiding star. Point of reference. My trusty dictionary.com says this about lodestar:
1. a star that shows the way.
3. something that serves as a guide or on which the attention is fixed.
Today, where is your attention fixed? Are you at the end of your abilities? You will never find the end of His. Without Him, we have no ability, but Jesus said four times in the Gospels, “with God all things are possible…..”….”If thou canst believe, all things [are] possible to him that believeth.”….”With men [it is] impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.”…..”And he said, Abba, Father, all things [are] possible unto thee”….(Matthew 19:26; Mark 9:23; 10:27; and 14:36)
What are you believing Him for? Are you at the “afterwards of your blank space?”…are you looking at the horizon and feel the end of yourself? That is where I found Him. At the very end of me. No longer self-sufficient…but God is sufficient for me.