From the time the first words were spoken– I was on the lookout. I’ve been given bad news before–and truthfully, I think my mind was sort of in shock with this. Cancer. This was not what I was looking for–and not part of our plan. I totally was not expecting what my doctor just said…but I was on the lookout for what God was about to do.
You may think I am a bit radical, but this is something I fully and firmly believe: God doesn’t give tragedies–but He allows life to come at believers the same as non-believers….and HE will use all of our circumstances for our good and His glory when we fully trust Him.
Recently I pulled my prayer journal out one morning and let my fingers and eyes trace back all the places in Scripture God had been leading me and all the whispers in the night that He had revealed. There was a distinct line…it was written seemingly in a dot-to-dot,
“Be on the lookout”….
God had been preparing me–even a year ago. No, I didn’t feel the lump a year ago, but I felt and heard from my heavenly Father. We had been praying and seeking God about the mission field….we were still waiting on an answer. Tears come quick to my eyes as I re-read the words that the Holy Spirit spoke to me over the course of about a week in the month of August, 2015 (that’s why I always encourage people, KEEP A PRAYER JOURNAL!).
I shake my head right now, in disbelief, NOT in what He’s doing–but in the incredibility of how He does things…it AMAZES me.
I don’t feel at liberty to share all the things He said in my private prayer time with you right now, except for this:
“Expect the Amazing.”
Maybe one day He will release me to tell you the full story of what He was doing–for now, I continue to keep track of His steps, trace His fingerprint in our lives and praise Him all along this mission journey.
Let me update you quick in case you are wondering about my health and progress. Diagnosed with breast cancer on August 2, 2016. Cancer was removed August 5, 2016 by way of lumpectomy and partial mastectomy. Pathology report a week later revealed–the mass was self-contained, the margins CLEAN and lymph nodes CLEAR. I will have 5 days of radiation and then pack for Bolivia! (Kidding on the last part, I have been slowly getting ready for a MASSIVE yard sale in September THEN we will be looking at getting some trunks and packing.
We have been blessed with amazing family and friends who have encouraged us, fed us, and liberally prayed for us. Thank you. For every cookie crumb and slice of ham! We need to be on a diet today!
We are still planning to leave by January 1since language school begins January 4th. BUT, all final decisions are God’s…and I completely trust and wait on His timing. There are new expenses to work through, but honestly, we both truly believe God will somehow –someway, get us through all of that–in order to get us there.
If you have always wanted to support a missionary with $25 a month (or whatever amount you feel), you can go here (click here) and scroll down to the bottom and select “give now”. You have options to the side of the “give” box. I put this statement here simply because you might want to know–and God will certainly use you and bless you in the process–as you would be joining us on the field by means of support!
Two words God has told me over and over–for over a year–through every single road block: “Trust Me.”
Can I ask you something? Do you trust Him?
This is one of the passages I have continually been led to over and over while on this journey–not the cancer journey, the mission journey.
Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. For our heart shall rejoice in Him, Because we have trusted in His holy name. Let Your mercy, O Lord, be upon us, Just as we hope in You.
Psalm 33:20-22 NKJV
Jeff and I don’t have all the answers, but if you are believing God for something bigger than you can even put down on paper, or even whisper in the dark, can I lean towards you this afternoon and tell you, He’s trustworthy….
No matter what happens tomorrow, or next week, next month or even next year, my soul rejoices in God alone. He is my hope-my salvation comes from God and the gift of eternal life through His only Son, Jesus Christ.
And I for one, am on the look-out for the next miraculous thing He has up His sleeve….
What about you?